Thursday, August 30, 2007

Life Stops


Well, its a big long story. My uncle in Hyderabad was suffering from liver problems. His liver stopped functioning. He used to drink a lot. We are all responsible for his death today. Aren we all as a family supposed to be there for him. He never got married and was all by himself. His sisters never cared for him and I loved him, but that was very superficial. He died on Sunday, the 26th. We were all so engrossed in our worlds that we did'nt bother about him. He would always drink, not that he was an all day boozer. He drank but not during the day. He would be high, but never misbehave. Had we as a family done more than saying a hi-bye each time we saw him. had called him for dinner to our house often, had each one of us contributed in some way or the other to his life he would have wanted to improve, to live, to be happy. Yes it is us who are responsible for his death more then he is. If we today put ourselves in his shoes, we will realise the pain he was going through. He was lonely and there is no bigger a pain than lonliness. It kills one each day from inside. I wish we could have contributed to his happiness once. But none of us ever did. I who wants to save the world by little things couldnt go to him, couldnt live with him and look after him.

Today we are all living, he has blessed us for whatever little joy we have given him. Yes he has blessed us in every possible way. I regret being alive today and letting him go. Whenever I would think of my marriage and my family happy on that occasion I would see him amongst family. I miss him today and I will miss him forever. Thing only thing i regret every night before sleeping is that I wasnt there to help him. I love you Viraf Kaka and I will always do. May your soul rest in peace.

Friday, August 10, 2007

These beautiful days


Now is the best time. Time can never be better. The days at office and home are going off really well. I'm just assisting the CEO in her work as her P.A is on leave. I have never been so relieved in the office since the time i have joined. I'm learning a lot under her. Love life is simply amazing but that is going to end soon as my guy has to go back. I will only get to see him next year now. My friends are down from my home town and they along with my guy are having a super time. What I've learnt recently is that nothing is going to be the same always. It all has to change. Sometimes we have very good times and sometimes its just all down.

Should i say God has put his hand over me. X is so loving. His birthday is also approaching and i really dunno what to give him. I treated him to dinner inthe Taj Golden Dragon n wow the bill came to a good 4k. Well i was shocked but glad not once did i hesitate while spending it on him. Oh i gave him a cake and those waiters suddely came up from behind him and placed da cake in front of him. I can say with confidence, he was certaily overwhelmed. He couldnt believe it and I could see the joy in his eye. That was my moment of satisfaction when i made his day so special. Wish i would have bought him something as well. But i didnt know what to buy.

U&P are down. They are having such a blast with him. They spend more time with him than I do. Well I'm glad they all are having fun. Thats all for now. It's a friday evening and i hope we go home soon
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